I am happy to be here in Georgia,visiting my sister and then I'll see my uncle, hopefully his sons, and my grandparents, along with a few relatives-to-be. Most of all, I like just being with my sister, Allison.
Right now I'm struggling with anger and the fact that I have a hard time with anger and I hold in so many of my frustrations. So many things make me angry and yet I don't share those with anyone because...well, I figure that only God needs to hear it. But so many times I don't even tell God. Then, when I do tell God, I feel like I need to talk to someone else about it, but I insist on mulling it around in my head until it makes me confused and frustrated. I just want to be able to voice my anger and then trust that God will give me good counsel. And then part of this whole problem I feel like I'm having is the fact that I will mess up. "Yes, you will mess up Gail, and yet God is good to redeem situations and will help you be humble enough to confess your wrongs to those you hurt".
I've said it multiple times recently, just not to anyone, but I am not going to isolate myself from people in order to avoid hurting them or in order to avoid me getting hurt. This scares me, but it's better than living selfishly by myself and not know and share the love of God through relationships. This may seem like something simple to others, but it's big and exciting for me.
Some of the things I'm thankful for lately:
A safe flight to Georgia and making it to the airport on time.
Allison's dog, Tink, is a dog that doesn't bark much. Yes, she loves to lick you, but her breath doesn't stink so I let her lick my face. I knew I was taking a shower later, anyways :).
My mom is healing slowly but surely from her surgery that happened on Tuesday night.
I got to use Allison's treadmill to do some exercise this morning!
